The only thing that I really hate about my condition is, my inability to comprehend indirect requests.

It's been always the same, it takes me too long to find out what people, especially my partners, want from me, and when I do... all the possible scenarios come to mind.

Now I can't sleep because of it, you asked me for something on your last birthday we spent together... I just got it... finally, you wanted me to get it for you, I didn't get it at the time. I'm terribly sorry it took me two whole years to get it. Maybe history would be diferent... I just read about parallel worlds, I hope they're for real, and that, somewhere, out there, there's a version of us still together

Now, it just happened, like an hour ago, I just realized that I may have hurt someone... it's frustrating because that, I can fix, but not exactly right now... she's asleep...

I hate nocturnal epiphanies

Remember our last christmas, we spent an entire week together.. right before our first break-up... I can't stop thinking that was the beginning of the end, I can't stop thinking that I did something, something I said that blew it all to hell... and I can't put my finger on it.

I hate the fact that's been almost two years and I can't let go, right when I'm fine, right when I think I've met somebody that's worth... you reappear in my mind.

The ghost of you doesn't let me sleep, doesen't let me make commitments and keeps me doing people harm, the same way you did, doing and will still do to me.

I fear the nightime, I fear my dreams, I fear to fall sleep.... because my mind will wander to you... just to come back as you left me....alone...

I don't know how much I can stand it...